When I was little, I really liked watching “The Magic School Bus.” Something about their zany adventures adding with science was just the right mixture for me. And there was always Miss Frizzle’s catch phrase:
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Now that should be my theme for 2014.
I’m a normally cautious person. I like to examine every option, and usually, my most common decision is to take the safe route. In high school, I never went out and, I never liked going out of my comfort zone. Safe is good, it’s not scary.
But safe never got me anywhere. When I started applying for colleges, there were the safe ones. The ones I knew I could get into and that I didn’t have to really worry about the applications. There was one specific school I applied to that was a long shot. I didn’t have a very good chance, and even if I did, it would be more difficult than going to a school near home. Instead of moving to a different state, I’d be moving to a different country, learning a new language and a new culture.
I was terrified, but I took the chance. When I got accepted to a university in Madrid, it took me weeks to convince myself that I wanted it. That I was ready for it. It took even longer to convince my parents.
That one decision, crazy and outside of my comfort zone, was the best decision I ever made. I found myself becoming more comfortable with myself, making friends I wouldn’t have made otherwise, and I ended up meeting my future husband. I learned a new language, traveled to places I never thought I’d been and learned how to fend for myself.
You’d think that I’d have learned my lesson, but I still enjoy my comfort zone. And that includes within writing. Yes, I’ve slowly expanded the circle, but there’s still stuff that terrifies me.
This month, I finally did something that I never thought I’d be able to do. I started sending out queries. Now, that is terrifying. And yet, I feel like it’s a step in the right direction. I took a chance. Was it a mistake? Possibly, but it’s the only way that I can become a better writing and move past the fear that I have.
So that’s my new theme for this year. I’m going to “take chances, make mistakes and get messy.”